this isn't just for me... its for every girl who has never known what it is like to be thin.

After countless threats I have finally decided to start this blog. I have thralled through the internet looking for a blog that i will find helpful, one that will stop me reaching, for those chocolate bars and having a quick binge, before i sit in front of the tv and watch all the skinny people prance around in their general skinny like ways. All I have found are diet blogs from women who have, in their thirties and forties, after popping out 3 or 4 kids (therefore giving them an excuse for being fat! )decided to finally get the body that they had in their twenties back!

But what about me and the people like me who are in their twenties and have never had that body... those of us who have never known what it is like to be skinny. Those of us who managed to go from being the big kid to the heavy girl to the well built woman (you might aswell call us fat if your going to say well built... women are supposed to be frail, waifs of things that need saving... you didn't hear jane austen describing her heroines as well built!)

So here it goes... it's 21.56 on Monday the 23rd of November, and after what is a lifetime of diets, fluctuating weight and the hope that someday, someday I would be thin, I am going to try and succeed... and best of all I am going to document every painstaking moment here (and there will be many!... I gaurentee there will be one with a tin of roses!).
Now to let you know what I have in store for myself I am going to give you my statistics...
Age:20
Height:5ft7inches
weight:13st7pounds
that puts me at a size 16... yes it does mean that i fit into a 14 top/dress in a few shops... but it also means i can't fit into a size 16 jeans in other shops! so I would love to end up a size 14 jean size (and that means all jeans!) and so i would be able 2 fit into some 12's! God I havn't bought anything in a size 12 since I was 12! and that was a top... my hips were around back then and they have never fitted into a 12!
I have had my BMI checked out... and i'm on the border between overweight and obese and frankly I like the look of the normalweight and overweight border much better... it looks like a much nicer place to live! So it will take me 2stone exactly to move there! I know alot of you might be thinking 'that bitch, i wish i had only 2stone to loose' but to be honest I dont think it matters whether you have 2 or 12 stone to loose, its still means you have to change your life completely.
To be honest, two years ago I was 15stone, I wish I had a secret to how I lost the stone and a half but I don't. I was lucky I guess... I was really dedicated one month and lost nearly a stone in weight (maybe a bit too dedicated) and of course gained numerous pounds back on and then a few months later I lost about 10pounds (diet and excercise this time!) then of course a few pounds crept back on. But I levelled out then at 14stone. I was delighted! and then I suddenly started to fall down close to 13st7! Little things like walking to the train station in the morning and not eating as big dinners added up! Over the last 9months the scales have wandered above and below the 13st7 mark and finally I've decided enough is enough... I am going to banish the 13stone mark, like I banished the 15 and 14 ones!
So here it goes! wish me luck xxx